Brent Gearhart - 11/11/2009
One day, not too long ago, I was sitting on my couch, meditating on things and I was wondering why my prayers weren't reaching the throne and why I wasn't having bold power with God. Just then I heard a voice say to me, "Your heart condemns you". Well, I often remember David Eells' teaching about James 5:16: "Confess therefore your sins one to another, and pray one for another that ye be healed". Well, I thought about that verse and I thought I had confessed all of my sins right after I came back to God about nine months ago. Then I remembered how when I got divorced I felt a lot of anger, bitterness and unforgiveness toward people involved with that process and I would take it out on God and curse Him, which is not a sin I am proud of admitting to anyone. So I went into a room of the house where no one else was and I sat on the floor and started confessing to God my sin of cursing Him with my lips. I had tears rolling down my face and I felt very ashamed and humbled at the same time.
Then, as I was kneeling down by the bed, I was given permission to hear this conversation that took place between two entities. One was a demon or devil who was saying to another person, possibly Christ or His representative, "You heard him, you heard what he did and said!!!" Then I heard Jesus or His representative say, "I forgive him", in such a kind and compassionate tone. I was so humbled. Then the angel of the Lord or His representative came over to me and I couldn't see his face or anything, just an outline of his shape, and He said to me, "He will bother you no more". I perceive this to be the demon of condemnation or guilt. After this, I praised the Lord and got up from the bedroom and felt GREAT! All week long after this, I felt great and had no condemnation for my past sins and failures.
What a merciful God we serve because I deserved all the punishment I was getting and going to get. PTL.